Jennifer Lum

I haven't been blogging for a helluva long time...lately there are things I needed to get out of my system and didn't exactly know who to tell...this is kinda subjective so I really wasn't sure who I could talk to.

Met this guy lately...kinda cool guy. A leo. He works as a warehouse assistant now but that's because he's going through he's studies at the same time. Sweet and charismatic. From a single parent family. 24. A year younger than I am.

Initially, I thought he wasn't my dish. Soon, his small gestures and behaviour around me kinda pulled me towards him. He's strange to a certain extend. He says he's still a conservative guy and I actually kinda believe it, although everything says otherwise. It's either he's lying or he really doesn't know the meaning of leading people on. There are many instances that he has lead other girls on without knowing. That's kinda true cause he's really sweet by nature although these girls are nuisances to the core.

Just a few days ago, we went to sing KTV together with another gf of mine. When I told him I was cold, he gave me his jacket and made sure I was warm. While we were crossing the road, he held me and pulled me to his side. When I told him I didn't want to go back early, he accompanied me as we strolled down Orchard aimlessly. He fondled my hands when we were at a cafe chatting, just because I was wearing his ring.

I am attracted by him, most of all, to the attention that he had given me. So attracted that when I get home, I can no longer face my BF.

The worst part is....I told him I was single.

Just caught that movie..brillant.At least that's what i think so.

It's about time women in Singapore get educated about what's truly fashion.
What it means by high & low fashion.
What's trends.
What's style.
What's shoes.

Don't misunderstand,I adore that movie for what Anne Hathaway wears.

I just spent a amazing weekend at Ritz Carlton..simply magic.Thanks go out to the fabulous hotel staff who made everything abso-fucking-lutely beautiful...

The day started with a check-in staff,so professional and profound in the use of english language(impressive),at the hotel lobby. She sounded so great that it actually brought goose bumps to our already over-excitedly skin. The hotel lift was programmed in the way that only if you had the key to the rooms,then you'll be able to use it.What's more was that,besides the lobby and pool,(with the use of the key of course!) you can only the level your room is at. How's that for privacy and security?!

We managed to get to the room and when we opened the door...the view from the room is just awe.Breathtaking.Imagine the skyline of Shenton,Fullerton,Boat Quay and the Marina Bay,all snapped into one picture.Thank god, the weather was beautiful.It was just amazing.

For the rest of the day,we just snuggled on the sofa...enjoying the view...had coffee and cake!(Compliments of the hotel for our anniversary!)

In some peculiar way, a man's anatomy is made strangely different from us, as i strongly believe.

Their brains never function the way our does, they can never understand what we think; they don't sleep, eat the way we do; and worst of all, they never listen.

Seriously speaking, how do you make a man listen? Be it a thousand reminders on the same issue, they never change neither do they listen. But strange enough, they always manage to get a earful of buddy talk after every beer session. It just doesn't seem to be like this when it's a woman, be it his mum, his sister or his wife.

Just about 2 days ago, I was experiencing the future to come.

There I was sitting in a kopitiam with my best bud, eating "zu chao" and sipping cheap booze, all the way till 1 a.m. My gosh that was like a premonition of what's happening in the future. I hope NOT!

Where's my high teas and shopping sprees and the "ah mats" and "tai tais" and mahjong kakis?

There's one thing I am sure about the future...I am never playing mahjong with Peanut Queen..

Love often fails when people instinctively give what they want.

Because as women, our primary needs are to be cared for, understood, and so forth, she automatically gives her man a lot of caring and understanding. However, to men (losers), this usually means we don't trust them. (What idiots)

There are 2 kinds of men. One will become incredibily defensive and stubborn when a woman tries to change him, while the other will agree to change but later revert back to the old ways. This is sad, cause my man is stuck between both kinds, so how should I term him?

How bout your kind of man?

I dreamt that I had sex with my boss....wierd.

Explain that.

Melissa says I am turning into a hermit...maybe that's almost true.I may have been too busy to even get in touch with my friends.The only people I have been in touch with are only my lover and my parents.

Work is turning me into a workaholic (as usual) and I am being to dread it.It's taking away my life,my time and worse it's turning me into this short-tempered monster.

I pity Marcus as he's like my sand bag.Whenever he says something i don't wanna hear I just leash it all out on him...I know it's bad and I am sorry and I can't help it.

The call with Mel just lit my day up...god,I still have my touch...

I know this came a little late...give me some credit,I have a very busy working schedule!

On the grand morning,I woke up,got dressed to the nines and left for my house where my mummy is cooking me the traditional soup vermicilli with red eggs.It was delicious!After which I gathered all the "Ang Paos" (red packets) that my mum,dad and bro has given me,and embarked on my shopping spree.

We started with DFS at Scotts where all the big labels gathered....I walked around but didn't really fancy anything.Yah there was something that I really liked but it's WAY out of my budget,like $1,700!!But I really like it.A Christian Dior White Leather Saddle bag.I did consider the locket I saw at Tiffany but it seems a little out of my league too.As in I don't really wear so much accessories do I?And it's $340,a waste if you don't wear it.

I went to Tangs,over to the Lancome counter to try the new fragrance,"Miracle just Magic".It felt like magic on me and I liked it almost instantly.So after comparing the prices,I got the 100ml bottle.I didn't know what came over me,with sudden energy and hype that I told the girl that it was my birthday today and why she didn't give me any free gifts?!!!It is embarassing now that I think of it,but yes I did it anyway.So in the end,I snabbed 3 perfume testers,a gift bag,a clutch bag and a eye shadow(it wasn't a tester,it was on sale and she gave it to me anyway!).So much for asking.

We proceeded to Gucci and I finally saw the wallet that I wanted.It was a orange leather wristlet with a zip top closure,a signature web strap and a metal charm hanging from it.It was gorgeous.It's actually more like a clutch bag then a wallet.

This is not the colour that I liked but just thought i'll give you an idea how it looks like.That was my Burfy prezzie from Marcus!!

After all the shopping,Marcus finally revealed where he was bringing me for dinner.In case you didn't know,he has been planning the dinner for a week but just wouldn't let me know where he's bringing me.Anyway's it's Restuarant Zambuca at Pan Pacific Hotel.

The first step in and you will walk past the restaurant's impressive wine cellar with a collection of more than 8,000 wines.Zambuca is actaully seperated into 2 sections,a bar and the floor.It has this very fusion,dark + african + zen kinda look.It might sound wierd but it's very romantic actually.The food was fantabulous,(Too bad I didn't have a camera!)we had brushetta and foie gras as starters and vongole and pasta de la case as mains.As I started chatting with the semillion of the restuarant,I found out that wine cellar in the restaurant is rated the best in the world.So you wine lovers,you guys have to try this restuarants out.No worries cause it ain't that expensive.

Of course I had a bottle of wine.It was one of the best bottle of white I had ever had.From Moss Wood,Western Australia Margaret River.

Just as we were half way through our dinner,the restuarant hostess brought in a huge bouquet of flowers to our table abd expressed that it was from Marcus!I didn't see this coming and was totally overwhelmed.It was a huge bouquet with 10 purple tulips and 24 stalks of roses.Simply breath-taking.

Lancome "Miracle Just Magic" 100ml : $120
Dinner for 2 at Zambuc Pan Pac + bottle of wine : $200
Gucci Wristlet wallet with gold charm : $510
Surprises and memories to keep : Priceless

We ended the night early as we all had to resume work early the next day.But it was a day full of surprises.

It's been a great year that has passed and I am glad to have spent it aside with people whom I love and people who had loved me,and still does I reckon!

Last night was well-spent with a accompany I think I wouldn't miss for the rest of my life.Food was absofuckinglutely delicious,ambience was great (besides some minor technical problem!).It was exactly the way how I'd wish I could spend the rest of my life.

As for this day ahead,I am going shopping!!It's gonna be a day of surprises ahead.

Lately,I have heard to much about people with relationship problems..including my own whinings.

Is it always good to be attached?Lately I have been pondering about my own relationship,should i or shouldn't I?The question is simple but too confusing to answer.

We have been fighting to much for me to even think straight and a panic attack is probably just a stone throw away.The more we fight the more differences we have.People often say that fighting can be positive as it makes you understand each other more,but in my case it doesn't seem so.After every fight,with tears incorporated,i wonder if I should still carry on.Its painful enough to carry on but the pain will simply get excruciating upon losing each other.So,the ultimate question is,should I?

Life itself has had its fair share of problems and stress.I can't take too much at the same time.Maybe i should just take a break.But where?Oh lord,save my soul.

Are you in a love & hate relationship?

How many times were you so close to erupting on your loved ones with that sudden surge of anger and hate thru your body?

I guess every now and then,all of us engage in some peculiar form of love-hate relationship,be it with your pet,your parents or your partner.At times I just really felt like snipping Marcus's head off with a giantic weed cutter.

Why is that when we love someone so much,we can hate them so much (at times) too? Does that mean that hate cannot exist without love,or vice versa?Or is it because of the expectations on your loved ones that drives the hate behind it?

And yes,one of my close pals just told me she's getting married in Jan'06...my gosh.And yes,you guys know her too.

Have you ever felt safe when someone is holding your hands?The kinda warnth nobody else gave you before?

This hobbit size lady walks into the shop.....& I wait on her.

Me: This is one of the new arrivals that we have...comes in 6 colours.

Lady: Really?Can I see the Size "M"?

I show it to her and she starts looking at herself in the mirror.

Me: I think this colour looks great on you.

Lady: I don't like it.I think its too long on me.

Anything will too.Reality check please.

Have you ever wondered why some women take "a zillion years" to buy an outfit?

For one thing i know i don't,but do you?

Have you ever spare a thought for the pathetic salesperson waiting on you?And with that,I mean poor me and colleagues.
I mean,woman to woman (& man),don't you know what colour suits you,which styles you should avoid and basically,what designs bring the best out of you?I have seen women,taking every colour of the same design in different sizes to fit and ending up purchasing zero dollars worth?

This bothers me.Please be more considerate.

I woke up especially early this morning to drag my ass down to the nearest cold storage to do some serious marketing.I was cooking lunch today!

I bought a couple a brocollies,baby carrots,fish fillets,and beef fillets.

I made stir-fried brocos and baby carrots with olive oil and shallots and garlic.
Pan fried fish fillet marinated with chives and a dash of black pepper.
Beef fillet steak with buttery cream sauce.

I even cooked a pot of chicken soup with herbs.

Now,how's that Bren?

It has been a month since my last entry....all's been well.

My mum has recovered and she's fine.Thanks to those who has showered me with all the care I can ever get.Thank you buds for being there.

I have finally driven the bitch who was boguarding my place at work,OUT!
Yeah!
For those who know me,I can get really dirty with these political games and I am getting a kick out of it.

Work has never been better.I feel so much at ease now being totally in-charge.I always knew I was a power-seeker and a control freak to be exact,but never once felt so good being where I am now.It has been a tiring 2 weeks....working till like 3am and starting the next day at 8am...not that I have never been there,but it sure feels goods.God,I think I might be perverted to feel like this..hee.

My mum's operation will be scheduled in 10 hours time...

I know she'll be fine....may God bless her.

May all of you bless her too....please....just for old times sake.

It's been a long time since i last get that kinda thrill when shopping...you know what i mean.Its like an adrenaline rush that spurs you on for hours even if it means you have got to fight crowds.

Just a few days ago,i think i got that groove back,not in orchard of course.

You'll never imagine a place like Clementi had hidden treasures waiting to be unravelled by the world.I spent like $80 bucks ang got like 6 tees and a pair of berms.Its not like these tops are way out,in fact,they are very fashionable justified.It sure felt good....

Peeps who know me,will know of my love for this certain japanese band whom i use to go gaga over...lately i realise,i still am.

I just got their new album and their new DVD.

Hey peeps....

I know it's been long since i have last left an entry here.A lot has happened, and i have seen through a lot of things, especially to this delicate term we call "friends".

What are "friends" you may ask? You seem to know what i am talking about, but do you? We have a lot of "kakis" we enjoy the usual endeavours with, shopping, clubbing & eating...one of a kind each. Are these people "friends"? I beg to differ. But how bout those we slip in and out of your lifes as and when they feel like it and everytime they leave, tear a piece of emotion with them? I must say I have a fair bit of these parasites around me.

Sometimes, we fail to see truth and light and it's often our "friends" who guide us along. Along the way, we change and we grow, so do our "friends". Some of them get left behind, while others fly by and ride the next wind. So, is it that we changed or they changed? We often say people around us has changed, be it responsible talk or ridiculous maligning. Have you really thought it through, is it us or them?

There are people whom we don't see very often, maybe say once a while or once in a year or so. When we get to see them, i guess we have pressure on how about we should behave around them. Should I act as per normal? Or should I see how things go? Or maybe I should be my usual self. The pressure came, not because we don't know each other anymore, but because of a certain distance and we feel awkward in closure. I know deep down inside, everything's the same, but get this, we have all moved on.

Things will never be the same, people change all the time. But it's the human touch that never changes. Being humans, we all have expectations, on ourselves, on others and on a certain event or occasion. Have you ever wondered, maybe its not people, but their expectations that hurt? Sometimes we expect too much and get too little, we get disappointed. When you feel disappointed, you blame, either on yourself or on others. So you say things like..."i think you are no longer the person i know of"...."you changed"..."who are you?" But have you really wondered, maybe its me?

The next time you say something like this, bear in mind that it just might be you. I always believed that it takes 2 hands to clap...if you feel there's something going on wrong, you must be part of it.

To all my homies...you know who you are....I will always love u.